Day 4 & 5: 'til Death Do Us Part...

I have written and deleted this post about 4 times now, thus the reason it has taken me 2 days to post. It is one of those things you just can't put into words, because words just aren't enough to paint the picture. But, I shall try. Sorry that it is just random unorganized thinking, but you should be used to that after 3 years worth of 'random, unorganized thinking' blogs....

I am so grateful (total understatement) for my sweet Hubs... If anyone in this world deserves a prize for putting up with me and loving me unconditionally...Micah would win without the slightest competition. There is NO ONE else in this world who could put up with me on a daily basis, happy girl or not, so I appreciate the commitment dear hubby.

We may be 'newlyweds' by timeline, but we are an old married couple in life experience :o) Married for 2 together for 7...it has been a roller coaster to say the least (good thing I love roller coasters). We have been through hell and back, a couple times, since we said 'I Do', but the journey has only made us stronger. Micah has been a HUGE part of my life since high school, and back then I really didn't understand 'love'. And I am by no means a scholar, but I am pretty sure I have a better idea at (almost) 25 than I did at 18. Micah has loved me through the toughest times of my life, he knows every detail of my life, every fault, every like, every dislike, and he loves me despite everything. I know everything about me too and I find it hard to love me, so I can't imagine someone else finding the place in their heart for someone like me....but for that I am grateful and forever blessed.
Our world today looks at marriage as a 'til death do us part, unless you totally screw up before then' commitment, which is not how marriage was intended to be. Marriage is forever, no matter what one does that ticks off the other, there really is no excuse short of physical abuse that would justify 'giving up'. And even then, giving up is a last resort...But people do, everyday. And every time you give up, you give up a part of yourself and you are forever damaged. It isn't worth it. Marriage takes work, it is not fireproof unless you make it that way. And my favorite movie quote: "Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it." So we ask ourselves daily if we are fireproof, and although we have our ups and downs the answer always seems to be yes. And I KNOW Micah will be there beside me until the day I die. Not because we are perfect and won't fail at times, but because we made that commitment and nothing can break it. Two years ago I posted This and This and my thoughts have not changed. I still challenge everyone to rent the movie or Read/Do the Love Dare (I have both to loan out if desired :o)

I went into this marriage thinking it was going to be all peachy, life would be perfect like in the fairy tales. I quickly found out that life can deal you a crappy hand and you just have to learn how to work with it. So we learned together, and I cannot begin to say how grateful I am for a husband who was patient with me. Now, as I sit a think back to how we were just over a year ago, I have absolutely nothing at all to complain about today. Life went from bad to worse to pretty darn good, and I am OK with that. Sure I find little things to complain about, but in reality it is not that he is wrong, he just isn't like me and that is OK. In fact, that is perfect because if he was anything like me we would drive each other up a wall within minutes and there is no way this would ever work out. But who am I kidding, if he was anything like me I never would have married him.

So, I am grateful for a Husband who is NOTHING like me. He does stuff around the house that I could never do. He does dishes because he knows I HATE that chore. I love that he teaches Sunday school with me and loves the kids as much as I do. I love that he is willing to drive a crappy car just because he knows an added loan would stress me out. I love that he cooks when I work late, and lets me be a grump on bad days. I love that he watches Dancing With The Stars, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice with me even if he would rather gouge his eyes out. He fills my car with gas because I don't like touching the gas pump. He gets me ice cream whenever I ask for it. He lets me go to bed at 9 and doesn't make fun of me for being an old lady. He loves me when I am unlovable and hugs me when I am a jerk. He deals with my OCD and tries so hard to change little things to make the day easier on me. He eats food that doesn't sound good to him just because he knows I like it. He lets me eat off of his plate whenever, even if I could have ordered that meal myself. He got me my sweet Cooper even tho he really didn't want a dog. He takes vacations to places he doesn't really want to go, just because he knows it will make me happy. He sacrifices buying all his 'toys' because he knows I am a penny pincher. He works hard at a job he doesn't like because he knows it is the only option right now. He lets me work crap jobs making next to nothing until i figure out what I want to do with my life. He hangs out with my friends when he doesn't want to. He is always the first to apologize even if I am in the wrong. He snaps me back to reality when I overreact. And he loves me despite all the crap I put him through. I praise God for him daily and am so blessed to have married such a wonderful man. I have seen so many changes in his life over the last two years and I cannot wait to see what the future brings.

So Hubs, thanks for putting up with me. Even if I am ungrateful and down right snotty sometimes, know that I notice the little things (and big things) you do for me every day, even if I still focus on the negative. No matter how negative I get, I do appreciate all that you do for me. I love you for all the sacrifices you make daily and cannot imagine life without you. Thanks for knowing everything about me, dealing with me daily, and loving me unconditionally. I love you to pieces and would not trade you for the world.

*Photographs compliments of our FAVORITE photographers: Reichman Photography*