Homesick for the Hubby

It's been a long long time since i have been....alone. Really Alone. I had been used to living alone Senior year when I had my apartment to myself. It definitely had its perks but I got lonely quite often. After school was out it was back to Peoria for me. And that meant back to living with my dad, my sister, and my kitty....and little neighbor kids. It was kind of nice coming home every day from babysitting, school, or running errands and being greeted by kiddos wanting to play. I found it humerous when they would act like they were ignoring my presence but riding their bikes in circles around my car...and when i said hello they would act so suprised that i even noticed them. Then it was instant chatter box until i finally had to excuse myself to empty my hands inside. Their parents would always come out when i was playing baseball with them or just humoring them with a little hide and seek and appologize for their annoying kids. "You do NOT have to play with them!! They have toys and other friends they don't need to bother you!" But i enjoyed it so when time allowed I was perfectly content being a kid for a while.

Neighbor dogs...there were ALWAYS dogs in our yard, and while i don't particularly like dogs, they seemed like family.

And of course my friends. Not that there are many 'friends' in the peoria area that i spend time with, but the few are definitely the best. And if there was nothing for me to do I could often be found and their houses acting as if i belonged to their families. I liked it that way!

Then I got married, moved away and everything changed.

Now don't get me wrong. I DO NOT miss Illinois. Really I don't, but I miss having people around. The last week i have found that being alone was never a favorite thing of mine. Especially in a strange place. I was fine the first day or two after Micah left...because I had my Liz here. But then when she left, the cleaning and organizing was complete, and all the laundry was done, i realized how alone I really was. CAT needs to send my Hubby back to me.

Micah and i were never really around each other while we were dating. Here and there we would visit, but we had very busy, separate lives that didn't allow us to 'be together'. After getting married i knew that would all change. I would ALWAYS have someone I love with me. And then 4 days later that proved to be false...and off to Europe he went.

Something has to change. I either need a job ASAP so i have friends and activitiy to keep me busy while he leaves me at least 10 days every month, or i need a kid to play with while he is gone...I guessing the job is the best bet because a kid is going to take AT least 9 months to get here and I definitely cannot wait that long. So i guess the job wins...after the honeymoon of course.

Last night was my breaking point. After sleeping less and less each night last night, sleep was impossible. I don't enjoy neighbors laughing and yelling outside my bedroom window at 2 in the morning. I don't like (HATE) smokers and the stench they bring to the world....and i really don't like when they throw their cigarette butts onto my patio because it is conveniently below or next to theirs. I don't like people who vaccum at 3 AM and seem to be very persistant in one spot OVER my bed. And i really don't like when people sleep with the TV on and don't care that the neccesary volume is 14 and they have theirs at 44. Seriously people. So after sleeping soundly from 12-2 and then being so rudely woken I was not exactly a happy camper this morning. Now is when the missing the Hubby comes into play because he would have yelled at someone. I on the other hand would never yell at a neighbor unless i had someone living with me. But being alone in an apartment where if i died no one would notice makes me think it is not a good idea to be pissing neighbors off.

So Hubby....skip the tool show in Chicago...screw CAT and GET HOME NOW :o) CAT will only be on my good side when they send us over seas so i can travel.

Love you and miss you....
If anyone wants to join me at the pool today I would love it, I will hopefully be the one sleeping in the sun.